Saturday, November 15, 2014

I will Live

I will live, I will live
Give me a chance
Yes I will live.

Believe me for i say no lies.
Cant you see that in my eyes?
Give me a chance, I will live.

Take my wealth, I care for it not.
my shelter too, I need it not, 
For my soul tells me that I will live.

As my Journey takes me higher,
My hands might shake,
My legs might tire
It may seem like the end is near,
Yet, i will live yes i will live

The darkness,its said will surely come
Bringing along times troublesome 
Yet give up on the quest, i will not.
'Cos I wish to live, so i will live.



Thursday, October 23, 2014

Do it,Today

"Is there something that needs to be done?"
"Yes there is, but for today there is none."
"Then when shall you do this work?"
"Tomorrow maybe, just stop being a jerk."

Have you ever had this little argument?
With your friend,sibling, or maybe parent.
Yes, you say you have, don't you?
I know you do, cause i've had them too.

Work always keeps piling on,
Ever increasing, why isn't it ever begone?
Boring as hell it may often seem,
Beneath your stature, many it may deem.

But work it is, your very own,
Do it you must, haven't you always known?
Then why leave it for another day,
Why leave the tea, to cool off on the tray?

Is it so hard to do what's needed?
Today, and not tomorrow instead.
Should you really lay off your responsibility,
Till it does reflects on your ability?

Do it now, i say you must,
'Cause only then you do what's right and what's just.
Procrastination is never the right way,
Why do it tomorrow, when you can do it today. 



Thursday, June 12, 2014

Finding the Dark


Caution - If you haven't read Before the Dark, do not proceed further.You can read it here


"Oh come on, you call that greatness?" Mr.Gibbon spat ,a look of disgust on his round and by now red face. "What he has done is no great deed, he is just an ordinary man with an unusual name that's it."
"Look at you, Gladwell Gibbon, you foolish man. You still don't accept it, do you? He has lured you and your damned group of men right into his lair, sure you have me captured but then, i am hardly of any good, aren't i? You have no bargaining power Gibbon your days are numbered."
"We'll see about that", sneered the Captain of the Redemption Society as he turned towards Roman with a sharp knife in his hand. "Tell me the rest of the story boy or ill slice off your ear." and he placed the knife right beneath his right ear-lobe.
"okay, okay."said Roman as he continued his tale.
"He blended so well within our family that after a year it was difficult to even imagine that he wasn't infact a part of it till as near as a year back. He would help my father with his Dairy and then help me with my studies. For a boy who never went to school he was unusually intelligent. He was sharp, very sharp. Nothing ever missed his eye. He was 14 when i found him and in a year the transformation was remarkable. The small, squeaky, timid boy had gone and the one that took his place was tall, confident and mysterious. He seemed to write a lot and the diary that he kept was like a treasure, he kept it so well guarded that i had seen it only once. Till i finally got a chance to read it three years later. But other than this he hardly seemed to be any trouble. My father even started to consider handing him the dairy business so he could permanently shift to Livingsworth. But a sedentary life at Big City was hardly what He wanted so he refused. Saying something about other plans. We never knew then what his plans were, and i wished i would never have found out. He left-"
Roman stopped short as another man dressed in the same military camouflage as Capt.Gibbons entered the room. "Sir, its one of the ships, Claude 1. They are hit bad."
"How many left?"
"Twenty three of our's against Three Hundred from their end, they attacked sooner than we expected"
"God Damn ---", Gibbon cursed, "Go to the tower and get me Commander Von Ham on the line, NOW." he bellowed as the soldier ran out of the room. "You wait here, i'll be back to finish our little story.Till then you have time to decide where your priorities lie. One wrong move and my men outside the room will not hesitate to shoot you like an animal." Saying that he left the room shutting the door behind him.
As Roman heard the click of the lock he wondered how and when did things get so far.
He was always a bit cautious around his new friend but not in his wildest dreams did he think that the hatred He harbored was so deep rooted.
He had recounted the stories of his Orphanage and Roman heard with horror the atrocities that the young children had to bear. But what scared him most, gave him sleepless nights was the confession that the master of Telling Tales Home for Children was murdered, neck sliced from one end to the other in his sleep by a timid little 14 year old. That was the day Roman started sniffing into the life of his friend, who now seemed something much different that what he had initially thought. But it was not until two years later, 21 June 1956, precisely that he found out the truth.
The Summer of 1956 was one of the hottest anyone had spent in recent memory and as usual Roman and the entire family was at Livingsworth on their summer visit. Having tried to locate the Diary unsuccessfully at his home in the city, Roman was more and more desperate to find it and read it. All his efforts seemed futile as the Diary seemed untraceable yet Roman knew,as he walked through the narrow lanes of the village that the Little Book held all the answers he needed and that it was too important to be lost. The most difficult part had been to pretend that nothing was wrong and that all was just as it had always been, yet he doubted that his fears were not a secret. There was a slight difference in the camaraderie between the two boys ever since that confession was made and Roman knew that he had to find that book as soon as he could. As he neared the shack where it had all begun, a sudden thought hit him. Like a flash of light Roman ran into the shack and frantically started looking around. He scaled the entire shack and finally reached the corner where four years back he had stared into those mesmerizing eyes. He noticed the the tiling was a bit loose and lifted it from the floor. There was a hollow pit under the tile, the size of a small box. Roman reached out his arm into the pit and with a jolt of excitement laid his hand on something slim and leathery. He knew he had found it and as he pulled it out, he could feel his heart in his mouth. Finally his search was over, he thought as he retrieved the black book from its underground pit. With shivering hands he opened the book and there on the first page written in a bold, neat hand was,
 "THE DIARY OF MORDRIC ZATANION"
At last,Roman thought as he found the first entry, that he was about to unravel the Secret of his friend, Mordric-
A loud thud brought him back to the reality as the door of the room flew open and Gibbon came flying into the room, seething with anger,"Two of my ships have been lost boy, you better tell me the story or i will blow your head off."
Foolish man, Roman said to himself as he began his tale yet again, he thinks he has a chance....

To be Continued...soon.

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Before the dark

It was a rainy day,yes a rainy day, I remember playing in the park with the kids from the neighborhood,splashing water and jumping across puddles. Indeed, it was one of the rainiest days the village of Livingsworth had seen in years.Livingsworth. The name still induces a feeling of nostalgia. Those quaint two storied row houses, with their conjoined terraces. The narrow,crooked lanes that slithered their way through the entire village. The village centre and all its activities, the tea houses and the knowing looks of the elders as you walked your way through the alleys. Ah! how can i ever forget that place.
I, who spent most of the year living in the Big City, for me Livingsworth was more than just a place. It was a haven. A sanctuary to get away from the hustle bustle of the Big City.

And so it was that on that day as i was in the park having fun in the downpour that i saw him for the first time. He was just a child, dripping wet and shivering. He was cowering in one of the old, unoccupied shacks, which until a few years back belonged to an impoverished smith who, one night in a drunken rage, had murdered his wife and children and then committed suicide . Since then, the shack was unoccupied and falling apart. The roof was in such a bad condition that it hardly could keep the water out. He was right there, and i couldn't take my eyes off him. Even in such a pitiable condition, there was something about him that stumped me. Something in the way he was looking at us playing while he cowered, alone and cold. His eyes, i can never forget that look, seemed to blame us for his troubles. Those cold, hate-filled eyes.

Before i had the time to think , i felt myself walking towards him. There was something in those small, grey eyes that was strangely hypnotic,and there i was right in front of him still transfixed by those eyes.
"Hey, i am Roman, are you new to Livingsworth?"
No reply. He kept staring at me with the same look for sometime and then suddenly got up and walked inside the house. I was taken aback, and honestly felt a bit insulted. But yet i decided to follow him . So i walked into the shack. It was damp and stuffy in there. The holes in the wall let some light enter the otherwise dark place. I followed him till the very back before he stopped and turned. Those eyes,i observed, had completely transformed. From the piercing,blaming look to a look of fear and pain, the change was astonishing.
"Please don't hurt me", he pleaded in a small squeaky,almost feminine voice. The fear in his voice made me feel pity for the boy."I won't hurt you", i assured. "Who are you?". Still he did not reply. We both stood there in the damp place looking at each other. Maybe my silence gave him confidence."My name is--"

You know what the name was sir.Even then when i heard it, the name seemed strange, funny, sinister even. But he relaxed after that, and started talking. He told me he was not from Livingsworth and that he was an orphan, also that he had come to the village in search of a shelter as the masters at his orphanage would regularly beat the children there.

I took him to my house and my father let him stay as a helper in his dairy business. We became friends and were almost as close as brothers. All was well, until the fateful summer four years later.The summer of 1956. If i had known then what this boy would do in the future, i would have never gone inside the shack. But those eyes, i knew the moment i saw them, they were destined to see greatness, to see things no ordinary eyes ever could.

 And that they did...


To be continued.... 

Monday, March 24, 2014

Until Death..Or Maybe Beyond.

"Wait for me honey,I promise I'll come soon"
He said as he closed the door behind him. She knew he meant it, after all Harry had always kept his word. But yet she was afraid,something told her today he wouldn't make,that today, after all these years he would not be there on time. She felt a sharp pain seer across her body as she fought back a tear. "No crying,Emma", she had promised herself at the beginning. She knew she had to be strong as she had prepared herself for battle all those months back. She knew he would need her strength, and she was right. How many times did she see him secretly crying at the window! "We will win Harry.It will all be ok",she would assure him even though with each passing day,she knew they were losing, that slowly but surely her body was giving up. But not once did she let him see her break down. 

Even after 33 years of marriage, Emma and Harry Walters were still like teenagers in love. Flowers, chocolates, cards,champagne and occasionally, jewelry, Harry would pamper her like a spoilt princess.He still did, she observed as she glanced through her room and saw all the Get Well Soon, I Love You cards and the beautiful bouquets kept around her bed. It was 18 months since they found out about her Cancer, and as far as she remembered, she had received a gift every day in the past 18 months. 

As she lay there, fighting everyday, she had seen him fight too, and what broke her heart was to see him lose. She lay there helplessly seeing her husband struggle. He would try his best to keep her spirits high but she could see, the man who once was the epitome of happiness was completely shattered from the inside. The facade of happiness , the undying hope of a miracle , the unflinching love of the man made her wish she could cure herself, only for his sake, for the fact was Harry was incapable of living without her. She was his one true companion and life without her was something he would never be able to handle.

Three days back the doctors had given up. They offered to let Emma leave the hospital so she could get some peace in her last few days. Everyone had accepted the fate, Emma herself was as strong as ever. Everyone but Harry. He still refused to believe it. He showed no sign of giving up. "You need rest, honey, for a few days, then we'll go to the Alps again to see the beautiful mountains and the serene lands", he had told her the other night while they lay on their bed, in the darkness. She could sense he had tears but she did not dwell on it. "Till death do us part"", they had once vowed with smiles across their faces and love shimmering trough their eyes. The memory of that day haunted her now. The Vow would soon come true.

"Please God, just a little more time", Emma begged as she felt it going dark.After 18 long months her resolve finally broke and she let her tears flow. Harry had gone to buy her ice-cream. Chocolate-Mint, her favourite flavour. How she wished she hadn't asked for it. How she wished Harry was here. It was then as she felt her breath slowly leave her body that she finally saw it, behind his latest card was a bottle of pills which were not hers. One glance at the bottle was enough to tell her what they were and in that moment she loved Harry like she had never loved him before. Her regrets were all but gone and she knew, it was all going to be ok. They were going to the Alps after all. She closed her eyes and peacefully embraced the darkness for she knew, her Beloved Harry, always intended on keeping his word.

The Rock

There it sits like a Patient King,
To the throne of sand, tight it does cling,
For a thousand years it stays unmoved,
Patience is a virtue thus stands proved.

Sun,snow,thunder, it withstands all,
with it's steadiness it conquers each fall.
It knows no pain, it knows no strain,
It bows not even before the mighty rain.

O men, learn from the Rock;
Without a voice, hear how it does talk.
Learn to be steady, learn to be strong
Learn to be patient, when everything goes wrong.

The rock never fails in its undying struggle;
Emerges Victorious, learn from its example.
Stay calm in the face of any adversity,
Be like the rock,
'cause the harsh world knows no pity.